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KEEPING UP WITH THE DEVERAUXES
By Jennifer-Lynn D'Anna
EPISODE 52

SCENE 1: EXT. ROOFTOP-TUSCANY

IN on JACK, breathing heavily. He cannot believe what he just heard.

JACK: I don't know what....(EXHALING) I don't know what to say. (CHANGING HIS FOCUS TO JENNIFER, WHO IS STILL BENT OVER CRYING) Jennifer-(WALKING OVER AND STEADYING HER UP TO LOOK AT HER) Jennifer, are you okay?

JENNIFER: (BABBLING THROUGH HER TEARS) I didn't mean to, Jack. I didn't mean to lose the baby.

JACK: (SMOOTHING HER HAIR) It's okay. Shhh...it's okay.

JENNIFER: (CRYING HARDER. CANNOT CATCH HER BREATH) No, it's not. I...I didn't know what to do...you were gone...and...and...and I was afraid.

JACK: (NEAR TEARS HIMSELF. NODDING) I know...I know...

JENNIFER: It's just...you...you were gone...and I didn't want you to have to stay with me because of the baby...and then...then I wondered if you would...

JACK: (HUGGING HER CLOSE NOW) If I would what, Jennifer?

JENNIFER: If you would leave me again. I didn't want you to leave me again, Jack. I wanted the baby to have his or her daddy there. I...I...I...

JACK: Jennifer, I would've been there. (TEETH CLENCHING AND HOLDING HER CLOSE) You've got to know that.

JENNIFER: (NODDING) I know...I know...and then...and then...I wished that I wasn't preg...pregnant and blood, Jack, there was so much blood. I lost our baby, Jack. I lost our baby. (BURYING HER HEAD INTO HIS CHEST).

OUT on JACK, wanting to wipe the hurt away, but cannot.


SCENE 2: EXT. ROOFTOP-TUSCANY

JACK: (GRIMACING) Jennifer, Jennifer, you've got to listen to me. (NUDGING HER HEAD TO LOOK AT HIM) Jennifer, look at me.

JENNIFER: (CRYING AND FINALLY TURNING HER HEAD UP TO HIM) I'm such a bad person, Jack. I didn't want the baby and I lost him....I'm an awful person.

JACK: (GRITTED TEETH) You are not. You are not an awful person, you could never be.

JENNIFER: But I lost the baby, Jack.

JACK: (CRADLING HER FACE IN HIS HANDS) You didn't mean to. Listen to me, Jennifer-

JENNIFER turns her head to not look at him. He instinctively pulls it back.

JACK: Listen to me, you are a good person. You know that, don't you? Nod for me, won't you? Please.

She nods reluctantly.

JACK: (SMILING WEAKLY) Good. Good. I wish I had something to say that would take all this pain away, but I don't...I don't...you (STROKING HER HAIR) held it in for so long...you're so strong.

JENNIFER: I should have told you, Jack. Why couldn't I tell you?

JACK: (TRYING TO BE STRONG WHEN HE WANTS TO CRY TOO) I don't...I don't know...

OUT on JACK, trying to figure out how to make her understand that it's okay.


SCENE 3: EXT. ROOFTOP-TUSCANY

A few moments has passed. JACK is still holding her tightly. He is trying to figure out what to say. JENNIFER shivers.

JACK: Here. (TAKING OFF HIS JACKET AND PUTTING IT ON HER) That's better, isn't it?

She nods.

JACK: (TRYING TO COMFORT HER) Can...can you talk about it?

JENNIFER: (WEAKLY) I can...I can try.

JACK: (LEADING HER TO SIT DOWN ON THE GROUND) Let's try then, okay?

JENNIFER: (QUIETLY) Okay.

JACK: (SITTING DOWN BESIDE HER. HE GRASPS HER HAND TENTATIVELY AND STROKES IT) I was...I was gone when you found out you were...you were...you were preg...with child?

JENNIFER: (CALMING DOWN ENOUGH TO TALK. ON THE BRINK OF TEARS) Yes.

JACK: Okay. About when did this...this pregnancy occur?

JENNIFER: The last time I saw you...right before you left for Pretoria again.

JACK winces at remembering when he left.

JENNIFER: I guess I already knew when I took the test. I was late and I know we weren't trying, but...

JACK: (NODDING, WISHING HE COULD TAKE IT ALL BACK, WISHING HE COULD'VE BEEN THERE) But it happened anyway.

JENNIFER: (PAUSING AND GAINING A LITTLE COMPOSURE) Right. I was just so scared, Jack. We were living in a place with no real sense of home. We were always picking up and leaving. Being at the camp with my Dad was the closest we've been to home in a long time. I wanted...I guess I wanted to be back here with Gramma and you and (LAUGHING IRONICALLY THROUGH HER TEARS). Funny, isn't it? I got just what I wanted.

There is a pause as JACK figures out what to say. He reaches into his jacket pocket (which is on her) and hands her his handkerchief.

JACK: And (PULLING A FACE) Colin?

JENNIFER: Colin was there, Jack. We spent all kinds of time together. Nothing happened. We just talked about things.

JACK: (HURT) Things? (BEAT) And he knew about the baby?

JENNIFER: (QUIETLY) He was...he was the one who confirmed it. Doctor..Doctor Jackson called me with the news and I went to Co...I went to Colin to confirm it.

JACK: (PAINED) Oh.

JENNIFER: Jack---

JACK: (AVOIDING HER EYES, REALIZING HE SHOULD HAVE BEEN THERE) No. (BEAT) And I was gone.

JENNIFER: But you were gone for a reason...you were helping the ISA, Jack. I...I don't know why I couldn't figure it out then.

JACK: (LETTING GO OF HER HAND AND TURNING AWAY. AFTER A MOMENT, HE SPEAKS) I was gone...and you...you lost the baby. You lost our baby.

JENNIFER: (REACHING OVER AND TOUCHING HIS SHOULDER) Jack-

JACK: (TURNING TOWARDS HER...ALARMED) Are...are you really alright? You said there was blood.

JENNIFER: I'm...I'm fine...Jack, I'm so sorry. (BEGINNING TO CRY HARDER AGAIN). I just kept thinking...

JACK: That I'd never come back. That I left you when you needed me most. (QUIETLY) Like I had done time and time again in the past.

JENNIFER nods, sadly.

JENNIFER: (TRYING TO STOP HIM FROM BLAMING HIMSELF) I lost our baby, Jack. He would've been so tiny, with little hands and little feet and I didn't want him. I didn't want him.

JACK: (STANDING UP AND WALKING AWAY A LITTLE, THEN WALKING BACK) No. No! You didn't want him to grow up without... (QUIETLY) without his father.

JENNIFER: (STANDING UP HERSELF) But I should have told you-

JACK: (PACING. STOPPING AND TURNING TOWARDS HER TO MAKE POINTS) You were scared.

JENNIFER: It was stupid. I...Think of the baby, Jack. He would've been the little brother or sister Abby wanted and I was so...I was so selfish.

JACK: You are not selfish. You had every right to do...to think what you did. (BEAT) When...when did the... the miscarriage occur?

JENNIFER: I was...I was going on three months and...(BEGINNING TO CRY EVEN HARDER) Jack, it was horrible.

JACK: (INSTINCTIVELY WALKING OVER AND PUTTING HIS ARM AROUND HER AND DRAWING HER TO BURY HER HEAD IN HIS CHEST) You don't have to talk about it if you don't want to.

JENNIFER: (LAYING HER HEAD ON HIS CHEST AND NOT LOOKING UP) No...no...I want to...I...Colin...Colin told me to tell you, Jack...He told me to go find you.

JACK: (FINDING THIS VERY INTERESTING) He did?

JENNIFER: He told me that you...you needed to know. So I went to find you...I wanted to tell you...you that we were having...having a baby.

JACK: And you couldn't find me.

JENNIFER: No.

OUT on JACK, alarmed at what JENNIFER may have meant.


SCENE 4: EXT. ROOFTOP-TUSCANY

JACK: (CONFUSED) No? Jennifer-I-

JENNIFER: You were with somebody...some man. You were in an alley and somebody...somebody told you that they wanted their money...

JACK: (EYES WIDE IN SHOCK. HE STEPS BACK AND GRASPS HER ARMS) Jennifer-Jennifer, what else did you hear?

JENNIFER: Nothing. I heard nothing else. Jack, what is it?

JACK: (LYING) Nothing. Nothing. Why...why didn't you find me after that?

JENNIFER: Jack, I...I tried telling you. The last time you called home, I tried. I told you I had news.

JACK: (PUTTING IT ALL TOGETHER. TURNING AND WALKING AWAY) And I told you it could wait.

JENNIFER: (TRYING TO STOP HIM FROM DOING THE INEVITABLE-TAKING ALL THE BLAME) I should have told you then.

JACK: (TOUCHING HIS CHIN AND SIGHING WITH HIS BACK TOWARDS HER) I should have let you.

JENNIFER: (TRYING TO CALM DOWN) I went to find you, Jack. I wanted to tell you and then I saw...I saw what was going on and all I...all I could think about is...is...and don't hate me for this...is how you were off doing something for money and putting me and Abby in danger...

JACK: (TURNING TO FACE HER AND RAISING HIS VOICE. HE CAN'T BELIEVE SHE WOULD THINK THAT) I could never hate-

JENNIFER: (LOCKING EYES WITH HIM FOR A MOMENT) Let me finish. I kept thinking back to all the times you left and I couldn't do it. It had been running through my head ever since the test came back, Jack. I couldn't do it...I couldn't have this baby without you...I needed you. I didn't...I didn't want the baby...for one split second, I didn't want the baby and then....and then...

JACK: (PAINED) And then you lost it the baby...you lost the baby and I couldn't help you.

JENNIFER: Jack, can't you see? It's not your fault. I should've told you...I should've made you listen.

JACK: You can't make me listen! I should've wanted to listen. (RUNNING HIS HANDS THROUGH HIS HAIR IN FRUSTRATION)

A few moments of silence passes. Finally, he speaks again.

JACK: Colin treated you then?

JENNIFER: (QUIETLY) Yes.

JACK: What was the reason...the reason for this misc...for this...other than the obvious of course?

JENNIFER: He doesn't know. I guess...I guess my body couldn't take it, Jack.

JACK: And Abigail? Did she know?

JENNIFER: No. I...I wouldn't tell her until...

JACK: Until you told me...(SIGHING HEAVILY) I can't...I can't dea (TRYING TO BE STRONG)-Jennifer, is there anything I can do for you?

JENNIFER: You can...you can hold me, Jack. You can hold me.

JACK: (QUIETLY) I can...I can do that.

After a moment, he walks over to where she's standing and leads her to the ground. He lays her head in his lap and holds her close. He is very uncomfortable and she is hoping that this doesn't cause him to close his feelings off. You can tell by the look on his face, one of deep sadness and regret, that he is already doing just that, though.


SCENE 5: EXT. ROOFTOP-TUSCANY

About a half-hour has passed. JACK is still holding JENNIFER, who has fallen asleep, as the strains of a song begin to play. He looks at her calm face and wonders how he could continually keep hurting her.

You make me feel vulnerable and totally exposed
You make me feel like a teenager dressed in a woman's clothes
And I ask you, and I ask you, where do we go from here?

He takes her shawl from behind her and bunches it up to make a pillow and then places it under her head. He gets up and slowly and painfully walks around the rooftop, looking around for some answer to his problems. He keeps looking back to a sleeping Jennifer.

All my life, I've been the one who's big and strong for everyone
Then you come along, a towerblock for me to lean on.
And I ask you, where do we go from here?

Placing his hands in his pockets, he walks despondently down the staircase and fishes out the Jennifer and Colin photo from the garbage. He smiles painfully to himself looking at the two of them. He sits down on a step and pulls out the photo of himself and Jennifer they were looking at earlier from his wallet. He wipes away a tear from his eye and mouths the words "a baby."

You've got me so I'm curling like a kitten in your hand
You've got me so I'm clawing like a tiger caged and bound
And I ask you, and I ask you, where do we go from here?

He then walks over to the garbage can and throw the photo back into it. He walks up the stairs and looks at Jennifer, wondering where they are going from there and if he could do it.

All my life, I've been the one who's big and strong for everyone
Then you come along, a towerblock for me to lean on.
And I ask you, where do we go from here?

He walks over and kneels down and begins to lay beside her. With shaking hands, he reaches from behind her and touches her stomach, where their child had been. He is beginning to cry. In her sleep, JENNIFER places her hand over his and nuzzles closer to him. JACK holds her close and wishes he could have the moment he left her that last time in Africa back.

All my life, I've been the one who's big and strong for everyone
And now I know you've let me down, will it always be
That I'm the only towerblock for me?

The last shot is not of them, but rather the garbage can in the stairwell. In it, the picture of Jennifer and Jack lay where the picture of she and Colin once did.

END OF EPISODE 52




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